just some inner thought/doubts-keesroorda

Dear all,just some inner thought/doubts.
 I am not so much concerned/interested in the future. The now is what concerns me. Though not the fashion of every days madness. Not that. Today I had some small talk with Cees on the phone. It was for me an important small talk. We exchanged our believes briefly. I believe human conditions havent changed so much as we look back. Hope/despair/love hate, the whole scala of human emotions stayed pretty much the same. The instruments develop but we find ourselves in an eternal status quo. During my project with the factory I had an interview with an economist. I interviewed him about hapiness. One conclusion he made was that our hapiness depended on rivalry. He stated that the new economy would make people more free. I had to think about an essay of Umberto Eco. Eco wrote that the socalled freedom would create another imovabillity -an emotional immovabillity which i experience when I watch sometimes news or go through a book on warfotografie. I remembered a book about a man who remembered everything in his life. He got paralysed. This is sometimes how I feel. I recently visited South Africa. I had to to some work about warfotografie. I got paralysed too. I got stuck somewhere between the local poloclub and the shacks of Joburg. I am still laying there with my thoughts and feelings. Yesterday a man gave me a stone. I was just crossing the street and thought he was a beggar. I will bring you the stone. See you all on wednesday.